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[23:13]  Sam. [23:13]  may I speak to you privately? [23:13]  If you are here to suck up to me, then no. [23:13]  No [23:13]  I'm not [23:14]  I want to talk to you [23:14]  I want to ask to not be attacked in a group any more [23:14]  May i ask something from you? [23:14]  because right now, to be fully honest and not melodramatic at all, I feel like killing myself. [23:15]  Will you give me that? [23:15]  Yes, you may ask something of me. [23:16]  I'm sorry, but If you continue to treat us this way and if your bad attitude continues, i'm sure it will happen again. [23:16]  Can you fix that? [23:16]  I want to Sam [23:16]  Can you stop with that? [23:16]  I can't fix i [23:16] <Freehugs41> *it [23:16] <Samtastic450> That is my only request [23:16] <Samtastic450> Im serious [23:16] <Freehugs41> stop with what? [23:16] <Freehugs41> stop with what? [23:16] <Samtastic450> I really do like you as a friend [23:16] <Freehugs41> stop with what???? [23:16] <Samtastic450> Your attitude and the way you treat us. [23:16] <Freehugs41> Sam [23:17] <Freehugs41> I try to fix it. [23:17] <Freehugs41> Do you not believe me [23:17] <Freehugs41> ? [23:17] <Samtastic450> I never said you don't try. I just think you don' [23:17] <Samtastic450> don't try enough [23:17] <Freehugs41> I do, Sam. [23:17] <Freehugs41> And the only way we can move forward [23:18] <Freehugs41> is to stop dwelling on the past [23:18] <Freehugs41> and accept that I make mistakes [23:18] <Freehugs41> because I do [23:18] <Freehugs41> Okay? [23:18] <Freehugs41> I'm sorry for any way I've hurt you in the past. [23:18] <Freehugs41> I wish I could fix it now. [23:18] <Freehugs41> I can't. [23:18] <Freehugs41> I also would like to say that the abuse I was put through tonight [23:18] <Freehugs41> no one deserves [23:19] <Samtastic450> I know no one deserves that. [23:19] <Samtastic450> But [23:19] <Freehugs41> no one deserves to be treated like I was, Sam. [23:19] <Samtastic450> It was either now or never [23:19] <Freehugs41> no one deserves to be treated like I was, Sam. [23:19] <Samtastic450> I heard you [23:19] <Freehugs41> I don't think you know how bad I feel right now. [23:20] <Samtastic450> I do. And don't you even say that I don't [23:20] <Samtastic450> Because i do [23:20] <Freehugs41> Then why did you put me through that? [23:20] <Samtastic450> You think it was easy to finally stand up to you? [23:20] <Freehugs41> I'd never put anyone through that kind of torture [23:20] <Samtastic450> It felt like crap telling you that. Because no one deserves that [23:20] <Freehugs41> I'd never make anyone want to kill themself like the way I want to kill myself right now. [23:20] <Freehugs41> Then why the hell did you do it to me?! [23:21] <Freehugs41> I'm just as human as anyone else [23:21] <Samtastic450> but you know what? it had to happen. Because if it didn't, it would have to happen even worse than today. [23:21] <Freehugs41> what you did to me tonight, was worse than any ban [23:21] <Freehugs41> what you did to me tonight, was worse than any ban [23:21] <Freehugs41> no ban could even compare to the abuse I was put through [23:22] <Samtastic450> Contemplating Suicide over something that happened online is pretty pathetic....I'm sorry but...its true [23:22] <Freehugs41> That sure as hell makes me feel better. [23:22] <Freehugs41> That makes me feel like living, telling me I'm pathetic [23:22] <Freehugs41> I never said I was thinking about killing myself [23:22] <Freehugs41> I said I had the urge to [23:23] <Freehugs41> I'd never kill myself [23:23] <Freehugs41> I have too much to live for IRL [23:24] <Samtastic450> Then why say you wanted to kill yourself? The only way you can say something is if you think about it. Unless you spoke without thinking [23:24] <Freehugs41> Because I want to kill myself [23:24] <Freehugs41> I won't contemplate it [23:24] <Samtastic450> Then you thought about it [23:24] <Freehugs41> but I want it [23:25] <Freehugs41> I did think about it [23:25] <Samtastic450> Then there you go [23:25] <Samtastic450> Contradicting yourslef again [23:25] <Samtastic450> Freehugs, you need to sleep [23:25] <Samtastic450> Please [23:26] <Samtastic450> Odds are, you may get demoted...:( [23:26] <Freehugs41> I'm not fucking contradicting myself - pardon my language [23:26] <Freehugs41> Odds are I won't [23:26] <Freehugs41> So don't get excited [23:26] <Freehugs41> Ryan just said no [23:26] <Freehugs41> I say no [23:26] <Freehugs41> and Jam will say no [23:26] <Samtastic450> Freehugs, This is why i don't respect you as a person. [23:26] <Freehugs41> why? [23:27] <Freehugs41> because I'm tired? [23:27] <Samtastic450> Because of what you just said right now. [23:27] <Freehugs41> What is it? [23:28] <Freehugs41> That I didn't contridict myself [23:28] <Freehugs41> or that three of the five admins don't want me demoted> [23:28] <Freehugs41> ? [23:29] <Samtastic450> Freehugs, good night. [23:29] <Freehugs41> Do not post this in main chat please [23:29] <Freehugs41> this was a private conversation. [23:30] <Samtastic450> You wouldn;t be able to vote in your punishment. That would be like a bunch of murderers having a say in the jury. [23:31] <Samtastic450> Not gonna happen [23:31] <Samtastic450> Good night [23:31] <Freehugs41> I will be able to vote [23:31] <Freehugs41> I'm an admin

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